I am nothing but a disappointment

Thats what my current msn nick is..

I am so disappointed with myself..
Always regret when its too late..
I should be ashame of myself..
Disappointing those who believes in me again and again..

I always tell myself i'll change my way..
But in the end, nothing is done..

This time..
I meant what i say..
I will change..
Its a promise i made to myself..
Watch me....

Budapest

Yay!! Finally, updates on my easter trip. I'll just blog about Budapest first and continue the others some other time. If not, this will be a SUPER long post. 

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I was in Nottingham the day before we’re off to Budapest. It was to avoid me almost missing my flight again. Bad memoryI must say. 

Long story short, i stayed the night at their (read: Alicia and YaoYing) place. Its been so long since me and YY were sleeping in the same room. That sounded so wrong. haha.. Well, we used to be roommate back in Semenyih so that explain everything. How nostalgic.

The next day we went to have lunch at some chinese restaurant. Then off to the airport which took about 1 hour bus ride. After checking in and everything, we wandered around the duty free stores where I bumped into Xu Yi (a friend from UNiM who's also in Nottingham now). What a coincidence. She was flying to Amsterdam. I think. I dont quite remember where. 

It was because her flight got delayed that we managed to bump into each other. After much talking and walking around, we board the plane. We almost missed it as both of us forgets that we had to board the plane half-an-hour before. T____T

Talk about blur. 

By the time we reach Budapest, its already 7smth. We then look for minibus service that will take us to our hostel. The airport is so nice unlike the typical airport that we see everywhere.

Both of us were busy looking at the map figuring out where our hostel is when out of nowhere a guy came up to us and offered to help. Kind right??

He told us that he’s living there and can help us out. So we showed him the address and he then showed us where it was. Miss Alicia was completely mesmerized by that guy because she can’t stop talking about him for the whole trip. (note: Told you to get his no. tapi tak mau )

Once we checked in and left our luggage in the room, we went food hunting. There was a restaurant that was recommended by the receptionist but by the time we were there, it was closed. So we ended up eating at a restaurant next to our hostel. From the outlook, it looks expensive but the price was actually kinda reasonable.

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Desserts. The cake was so damn delicious ok. One of the best that I had. Speaking of which, the one i had in Nottingham the day before was really good too. 

You’ll notice that the word dessert will be making quite a lot of appearance in my post for the trip. We just can’t stop ourselves from savouring those delicious-looking-nevertheless-tasty-desserts. Talk about diet. Plan is so totally down the drain.

We then went back to the hostel and called it a night. We were so tired BUT we will never guess what’s in store for us the next day. *sweat*

We woke up kinda early the next day as we only have 1 day to look around.

Synagouge

National Museum

Market Hall

The one on the left is a hotel with bath in it. We have to pay to go in the bath. Too bad.

Then came the unexpected event of the day. We were going to this place called Gellert Hill and we had to hike up to the top which was so fucking high ok. Yeah,I know. The name already said that it’s a HILL. BUT it never says anything of it being so HIGH up. The me, who “love” hiking so much, was “ecstatic”. 

So both of us hike up the hill “happily” singing “what a wonderful world”. wtf.. Halfway through, we were huffing and puffing already. We said that others must be thinking “Weird girls. Getting so tired with only this.” I’m serious ok. There was this old couple who looked much more energetic than us. Not to mention, less tired. Wtf?! 

Halfway up

Finally

The view up there is nice though

The way down the hill was not much better than the way up. Damn. Why the hell the sights had to be so scattered??

 

Just to show you guys how far is it from one place to another

Our next destination from Gellert Hill =.="

Royal Castle

Smth to temporarily fill our empty stomach

Fishermen's Bastion

I HEART the parliament. It was so nice.

Alicia kept mixing Chain Bridge and Charles Bridge up because both starts with C.
 

Chain Bridge

St. Stephen's Basilica

Opera

We had dinner at McDonald’s. Can’t help it ok. The McD’s interior was so nice wehh.. I managed to only capture 1 picture because people around were giving me those weird look again. Seriously, its so hard being a tourist. *sigh*

 

We then walked all the way back to the hostel. By the time we reached our room, we were half-dead already. How to survive 6 more days?? Who would had thought the first day had already drained most of our energy. We planned to go back to the restaurant before to have the delicious dessert again but then I fell asleep. So plan remains as plan.

We then did more sightseeing the next morning before going off to Prague. This time by the metro. Yeah, call us spoilt but our legs were tired from the day before.

Heroes' Square

Art Gallery


Metro


US

I just realised that we forgot to take pictures of the train station. Anyway, before we went off, we managed to send postcards at the post office. Remember the postcards i showed before? Alicia suggested that we will send postcard to each other at every places that we visited. Then we can received it when we're back and read what we wrote for each other. I like the idea. I'll definitely do it everytime i travel from now on. 

I'm feeling so good

No particular reason really. Am just in a good mood now. Maybe its because i finally had a title for my dissertation?? I came up with an idea for my dissertation but was rejected. Well, not really rejected but more like its not feasible. It was just kinda impossible to get many datas and there's so much complication. 

I'm so freaking hungry now. I don't even know why. I had one big bowl of rice for lunch today and now im hungry already?? wtf.. Now you know where all my extra lbs comes from huh.  Gonna make myself a cup of MILO. ~minum milo anda jadi sihat dan kuat~ lol.. Waiting for the water to boil. 

Oh wait. Its done. 
Continue later..
*skipping off to minum milo*

I lurrrvve exam....Not!

As indicated by the title, yes, i have to go through the "joy" of sitting for exams. Anyway, the suffering is now over and i won't be discussing just how "well" i did.  All that's left now is the dissertation. Like that is any better than exam. *sigh* I like schooling life and all but definitely not the exam part. Like, who likes exam?? If someone told me they like to sit for exam, i'll recommend them to go for a brain-scan. Like seriously.. Exam and fun definitely does not synch.

Ohya, i manage to see PROTON yesterday. Not one. Not two. But THREE!! In one day and not to mention, its all different models too. Saga, Wira (they have a different name but i forget what it is di) and wira aeroback. Before this, i even saw gen-2 and satria before. Nothing special u think. If in Malaysia i understand la.. Buatan Malaysia what.. But here?? Like seriously, proton in uk?? Makes u wonder doesnt it?? I wonder if the fact that proton is the sponsor of norwich's football club has anything to do with it.. Hmmm....

Gonna stop here...

Yeah, i know i know. I said that i'll update about the trip soon. Guess that will have to wait. Let me rest my brain first. Am still in a daze due to the lack of sleep. So before that, show u guys the postcards that i send to myself during the trip. Will tell the story next time. 




The exam definitely drained me. Good night.

Disappointment

you should know very well how important you are to me and yet you keep doing this again and again. are you trying to test our patient? we are at our limit. if you did it once or twice, its fine. but this is the, i don't even know. it happened so many times that i lost count. this also shows how many times that you disappoint me. us. i thought you'll come to your senses if i let you be. i thought one day you'll wake up. i hope. i believe. but now, you did it again. then i know, you can never wake up. 

you always think that we are trying to stop you. you know that we hate what you are doing. have you ever think of the reason why? its because we love you. which is why we wanna stop you from getting hurt. but do you think it this way? NO. i know you too well. you just think that we are trying to stop you for our own good not yours. you think that you are right and we were wrong. you rather believe him. him, who had betrayed you over and over again.

so i had decided. if you wish to continue to believe all those lies, i'll let you. if you wanna turn your back to everyone who cares, fine with me. if you want to continue to bear those pains, don't come crying to me anymore. 

i am now very disappointed in you. 
not angry. 
just. disappointed.