Just another day

Lunching by myself today. Just found out a new place to dine by wandering around aimlessly. The food's good. Service is good as well. What else can you ask for. Hah..
Consider this as one of my self-pampering day for staying at home for sooo many days.

I had this habit where I'll feel sleepy if I'm too full. Bad bad habit I must say.
It will only add unnecessary fat to some "part" of my body.
I know some of you must be thinking.
"This is the problem with skinny girls. They always say that they are fat when they are not. Are they trying to mock us?"
The answer is "NO". I may look thin but I am fat somewhere where its not obvious to the naked eyes. All my friends know what I'm saying. Its a weird thing that runs in my family I guess. Haha..
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The hot topic of the day was, of course, the earthquake. Everyone was talking about it.
Like seriously, earthquake in the UK?? How rare is that?? And how "lucky" we are?? *sweat*

It happened in the midnight. At first, I thought I was hallucinating for being too tired. But when it shook harder, I realised it was earthquake.
Eve asked whether I went out of the house or not. I said no because by the time I started to panic, it stopped.  Reacting  a little too slow I must say.  Haha..
Then she told me that her friend's MSN nick diplayed "Ada orang gemuk berlompat-lompat di UK". Nice one. Hehe..

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Alright, gotta get my assignment done now. Its due tomorrow.
Gotta burn the midnight oil again. Can only blame myself for procrastinating. Yet again.
Update soon. I hope. 

Love is...

Love is blind..
Its something that we all know and something that we can't control..
It was said that people are the dumbest when they are in love..
They just can't see what's right and what's wrong anymore..
Its like something has blinded their sight and blocking their mind..
They won't listen to others and are willing to live in their own world..
But how long can that last??

Once the magic is gone, you'll wake up..
You'll see how dumb you were and laugh at yourself..
You'll realise that people around you were actually helping you..
Blaming yourself, hating yourself for being stupid..

However..
Even after all that, you still loves him..
You can't let go..
Still holding on to something..
Believing in something..
But what is it??
Hope??

You told yourself that you are wiser now..
You won't fall for the same trick again..
But with just one word from him, you are being pulled back again..
Once again, you believe in all those lies..
You believe that things are finally going right..
You thought that he change..

Then without any warning, it hits you again..
You are hurt all over again..
Crying your heart out..
Laughing at your own stupidity..
Assuring others that you are through with all that..
That you finally wake up..

But you lied..
To me..
To Him..
To everyone..

You repeat your mistakes again..
You know very well the story behind..
You know everything..
You know that he won't change..
So why are you doing this to yourself over and over again??
Why can't you wake up and see the truth??
How long do you plan to do this??
How long do you intend to let us worry about you??

You are so dear to me that I don't wanna see you getting hurt again and again..
This is why I urge you..
I plead you..
WAKE UP..

Its all good

First thing first, my internet is up and running again. No problems for now. Just experiencing some slow connections here and there but overall its all good. Pheww. Guess I complained too much huh. haha. Had a little problem but complain like hell. *smiling sheepishly* 

Its Valentine's Day yesterday. So HAPPY belated Valentine's Day. I know I know. Where got people wish belated valentine but hey, its my blog. I can write what I want. Once again, I'm alone on V Day. I' m actually ok for not celebrating it as I never really had a proper celebration of it before. Don't you think that V Day has become too commercialized nowadays. Flowers, food and stuff are charged way higher than they normally do. So I strongly object people buying me flowers on V Day as I think its a complete waste of money -- I sounded so not romantic. haha. I mean seriously, a RM1 rose becomes RM10?? I would love to receive CASH instead -- now I sounded damn realistic. *laugh* BUT I don't mind receiving little surprises every once in a while. 

However, being able to be with your loved ones (be it bf/gf/family/friends) is considered the best gift. I think. haha. It makes you feel blessed. contented. loved. I know I am blessed with many wonderful people who loves me. *beaming* So no matter who you are, always remember that you are loved by at least 1 person. Makes those who are still SINGLE feeling alot better isn't it?? is it?? *wondering*


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Today is also the ninth day of CNY meaning its the Jade Emperor's birthday aka Ti Kong Seh (hokkien). So last night, almost all the Chinese Penangites that I know will Pai Ti Kong (praying to the Jade Emperor). Correction, Buddhist-Chinese-Hokkien-Penangites. haha. This is because its more of a custom of  Hokkien people. ( I have to explain a little just in case people who don't know about it come across my blog. haha) You will hear the sound of firecrackers everywhere. Sugarcanes at people's door. Table full of offerings. Every family members will be home. In my case, my parents will have steamboat where their friends will come over to join us. Of course, there'll be gambling involves. Its CNY. Who doesn't gamble? The prayer will only starts when the clock strikes 12.

Its actually kinda fun. I remember looking forward to it every year when I'm young (actually still do). haha. I missed it for 3 years now I think. Too bad.

Anyway I was left speechless by SOMEONE last night. 

A : What are you doing now?
B : Online lor. What else?
A : Ohhh. You online Pai Ti Kong is it?
B : Your head laa
A : What website? Is it Paitikong.com?
B : =_="'  *speechless*

Ishhh.. I know I don't get to pray and you are having fun there. You don't have to rub it in.

My mum called me too. Chatted for a while with her and my dad. It seems like the topic of the day is my bro's new gf. hehe. Speaking of which, he's now in Koh Samui. I've been wanting to go there with my gang for so long now but always plan tak boleh jalan. Nevermind, we'll go when I'm back k. Deal? 

What the...

Stupid MSN!! Stupid internet connection!!

I don't know what's wrong with my internet connection these few days. Its so damn slow. I think even a snail can be faster than that.  It takes forever to load a page. Damn....

What upset me the most is that my MSN decided to die on me today. My sis rang me up earlier asking me to online as she's with my whole family at my uncle's house. I woke up ASAP and tried to online. BUT I can't sign in to MSN. Kept trying and trying. First, its the connection problem. Then it says MSN is having a technical problem and I can't sign in. WTF!!! 
My sis told me that everyone is waiting for me to online so that they can see me. I wanted to chat with them too but what to do. So fucking annoyed . WTH is wrong with my internet. I'll go crazy if this goes on. Internet is like my only connection to the world out there (Ok, I exaggerated again) but seriously I think I am too dependant on it now. *sigh*

Gong Hei Fatt Choy

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! May you have a happy and prosperous new year!!!
And not to forget, may you guys get lots and lots of ANG PAO and WIN alot!! I'm good, aren't I?? Wishing all of you this when in fact I'm feeling so freaking BORED here. Here langsung tak ada CNY feel at all. No CNY decos. No CNY songs (I can't believe that I actually miss it).

While you guys were planning your outings, I'm stuck here attending classes. Whatta CNY!!! I wanted to balik kampung (angpaos!) and visiting friends' house (angpaos!) too. Not to mention that I missed out all the good food. My grandma's CNY cookies are the BEST!! Then there's the gambling too. Aawww... I MISS CNY in PENANG!!!
Called my family yesterday after my class ended and guess what?? They are having steamboat then. Ishhh. My sis said that she'll take some photos and send it to me. Whatta sis.  Even my grandma teases me. Telling me that she cooked all my favourite food. At least she console me back by saying she'll cook for me again when I'm back. I miss my grandma~~  She always cook all my favourite food when I'm back to her place. Then there's my mum. Telling me HAPPILY that they are having steamboat and said that if I wanna join them, then just go back. I will if I can!! Then I won't feel so miserable here. Haiii...

Well, at least I have some decorations in my room. haha..My friends actually send me CNY card and decos. Ohya, and ANGPAOs with ONLY their wishes in. Where's the CASH, my dear?? Only you guys can think of excuses like "worry that the cash will be confiscated by KASTAM" and "getting caught for smuggling RM to overseas".  But thanks anyway. hehe..

As for now, let me drown myself in misery while you guys are having fun there.......

Bad Luck Bad Luck, Go Away

I'm not talking about today. I must say that 27th JAN 2008 (yes, my birthday) is the most unlucky day in my life. Okay, I may over exaggerated BUT it was an unlucky day for me. I almost missed my flight that day. Ishhh.

I needed to get to London Stansted Airport for my flight which is at 6.30pm. I bought the coach ticket beforehand which will depart at 1.15pm and reach at 4pm. Then I will have plenty of time before check-in and boarding. Well, that's what I planned then. However, things are not going well on that day itself.

I woke up early that day and even reach the bus stop 10minutes earlier as I'm afraid that I'll miss the bus to the coach station which is at my Uni. The bus is suppose to be there at 12.50pm BUT it wasn't. I waited and waited. 10minutes passed. Then 20. Then 30. This is the first time that the bus was this late. I had no choice but to call for a taxi. The taxi came in a short time but still not fast enough as I had already missed the coach. This is the first time that I hated UK's bus. Damnnn.... Anyway, that's my first unfortunate event of the day.

Then I went to the library where I accidentally bump my finger to the rail with my luggage causing it to BLEED!!  Damnnn... I then surfed the net to check the timetable for the coach or train and also checked-in online for the flight (which is lucky that I did). Found out that there's a train to the airport at 2.15pm so i called for a taxi again as I do not trust the bus anymore. HOWEVER, this time its the taxi that let me down. Usually, they are really fast after you called them but I don't know why I had to wait for almost 15minutes for the taxi. So again, I missed the train. 

The next train will be at 3.15pm and reach the airport at 6pm!! My flight is at 6.30pm. I bought it anyway as I don't have any other choices. At that moment, I had a mixture of emotions. Frustration, anxiety, sadness, nervousness... All rolled into one. Like seriously, how can this happened right? Its my BIRTHDAY!!  How can one be so damn unlucky on her birthday, right?

I kept calling Fab and telling him my misfortunes. Haiii. Damn sad wehh. I was damn worried that I will miss my flight. I told him that I heard from my friend that once you had 3 misfortunes, your luck will change. So since I had so many that day I prayed that good luck is now by my side. For the first time, I hope that the flight is delayed. See how desperate I was. Aikz...

I reached the airport at 6pm and I ran like hell into the airport. I was shocked at what I saw. The queue at the security is so freaking long. I panicked. Will I be able to make it? I was now this close. By the time I went past the security, its already 6.15pm. Checked for the gate which display that its FINAL CALL now. I then ran like a lunatic to my gate. AND I MADE IT!! Turns out that I'm not alone. haha... There were a few people who were there with me.

I quickly looked for a seat and not long after that, the plane started to move. I was so happy that I made it just in time. All the frustration, anxiety went away. What's left was anticipation.  Oh, and hungriness. Just manage to have a croissant and hot choc for lunch. My luck definitely did changed after that and hope that it will be here to stay. *fingers crossed*